2 posts tagged “change”
Also this year, another first: Scientists have produced a blue rose capable of growing in the wild. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/asia/japan/3329213/Worlds-first-blue-roses-after-20-years-of-research.html
"..Following the cultivation of test batches in the United States and America, the company will be ready to sell them from next year and aims to open up a global market for blue flowers worth an estimated 30 billion yen.
Having been cultivated for more than 5,000 years, as many as 25,000 different species of roses currently exist, although colours are traditionally limited to red, pink, yellow and white.
A blue rose has long been synonymous with the unattainable, from signifying unrequited love in Chinese folklore to its Victorian era connotations of symbolising a quest for the impossible."
I don't know about anyone else out there, but I think that in light of this, I will associate the Blue Rose to Barack Obama, someone who beat the odds and touched a nation that was otherwise blinded in its apathy. This year, the unattainable has been attained, the quest was conquered, and a new era was rushed in.
Democrats have the house... we will see the Change we have bled for.
Something beautiful was cultivated and grown...
\Where do I even begin? I feel like existence has been hiccuping and I've been tossed into the rock tumbler with every jerk Reality's diaphragm makes.
I suppose I'll start with the smaller notable things and work my way up from there.
-Loki has decided to move in with his girlfriend. I'm glad for him, and I'm getting along with her. But I really don't see them.. I suspect he needs a place to crash while he gets his shit together. She may be unfit for a life partner, but she's a great motivator.
-My creepy neighbor-stalker is getting married to Loki's old stalker in November.
-I've begun to belly-dance. It's done wonders for my confidence, but it's with Loki's mom. I feel like since he left his family, I'm taking his place. I work with her, dance under her, and she calls me her daughter already. I see her more than I see my own mother, which I guess I don't mind -- it's just a little on the bizarre side that my life has naturally taken me to make friends with all of the friends that Loki left behind. I don't seek them, they seek me... I wonder if this is natural after an abrupt change in social pattern?
-My sister's come to live with us.
-My mom remarried... and I wasn't there.
Now that that's been addressed, let me get to the fun stuff. Max is
moving away to China.......and I'm helping her. She's been a big
fallback in my life, my support net and my safety, and it's really
stinging to let her go. She's leaving me with two snakes -- should be
one, but under bizarre circumstances I'm not at liberty to disclose
even online, I'm getting two and a few more boxes -- and many of her
personal items. I don't know if she's even coming back, but I hope so
for our sake. We're supposed to go raise kids in Turkey, dammit!
----------------------------------Either way she's leaving, and it
hasn't quite registered to me yet. I don't know what to say to her
exactly.. I'm being the best support I can be under the stressful
circumstances that she's under, though mine are pretty bad, I can't
hold a candle to what she has going on. I can't imagine suddenly not
being able to call her. And Jesse's out of my life completely, I think,
not by choice but just by simply drifting apart. It seems like our
whole group has disbanded almost completely, in a matter of weeks.
There's so much change happening, I have to distantly wonder if the
Apocalypse is not finally near.
Did you see the eclipse last night?
I had to say goodbye to Max, and our last visit was rather amusing. I
stayed two nights at her house. I honestly don't remember how the first
night went, I think I fell asleep. The second day I went to Loki's for
a barbecue thing and he wouldn't see her... honestly, I consider the
two my cosmic divorced parents... either way it was that second night,
when I had come back to her depressed, that she took me and drove fast
and we blared NIN out the window. The whole situation reminded me of a
Dresden Dolls song.. if I had cared about dying at that point, the fact
that we both were dancing in the car and she didn't have her hands on
the wheel might have scared me a tiddy wee bit.
We got to talking, and the subject of energy drinks came up. Mostly because she needed some to stay up more and pack. So, we went to a circle-K and got some energy drinks, but she stopped short when she saw me reaching for a Full Throttle. I got a big scolding on the way out to the car, and it both hit us at the same time: We should have an energy drink tasting held at her house. So, we drove to a different gas station. (the whole way up I was being told what to look for in an energy drink: B vitamins, Taurine, and NO HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP..and why.) Red Bull in hand, the girl went inside and purchased 8 energy drinks for us to consume. I don't remember what exactly they were.. but she went through every single one with me, and when we got home, we put them all in separate bags -- All of which really were easily exposed, and even though we sat on the floor in her kitchen and took off all the telltale tabson the cans, the Get Well Soon giftbag she got from a dollarstore in china gave the green Monster away. Ah well, it's the thought that counts.
I ended up picking the Pomegranate Rockstar as my favorite, but we couldn't finish 8 drinks and live ... so we had about half a small cup of each. and we mixed them together and made weirdass nonalchoholic cocktail drinks out of them. and let me tell you, that's the best overdose of caffeine I'de ever had in my life.
At about 6am (I knew I wasn't going to work in the morning at this point), we had tea, and I talked to her until I was flat unconsious. I woke up when she had gone to work, and blubbered like a little kid because she was leaving, writing a lengthy pathetic little note. It sank in at the time, but since I've talked to her since, I guess the "Getting it" part was retracted.
