Stick Shift
I had been planning for a week to go over to your place and tell
you...but the roads and ice are far to dangerous, this was the day I
was going to do it, but I don't want to crack my head open on the way
over there...
I am so sorry for hurting you ...
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From:
Date: Dec 21, 2008 4:11 PM
[omit]; I sort of knew.
I like you but you've lost respect from me in that you weren't honest right away. I'm not one for "fluffing" things until it's comfortable to let go, if things are let go. We could have done a lot of things under the guise of being in a relationship just over the holidays, and it still would have ended up the same: I'd be at my mom's house, and you'd still have to dump me online on fucking MySpace. Then I'd be dumped and at my mom's. And then possibly with a lot more regrets than I have now.
I have to think about what I want to be to you. I think I still want to be friends but I'm not sure yet. I hope that in the future you're more open. I recognize you were trying to consider my feelings but I'm still a bit upset.
I'm sorry that things went as far as they did. I was trying to get closer to you because I felt that somewhere you weren't all with me.
And I was hoping that our relationship would warrant more than a MySpace breakup. I was hoping HOPING that I had earned enough respect to have it told to me either in your own voice over the phone, or face to face. Holy shit.
Umm.. I really can't think of anything else to say. I'm glad I figured it out myself, I guess you can stop avoiding me now.
closing comment "Well, THAT didn't last very long."
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From: Stick Shift
Date: Dec 21, 2008 3:41 PM
This is why I've been so "busy" lately...
, I jumped into this relationship to quickly...Tia hadn't even been gone a month before I started to be with you, and even at the time, I wondered if it was the right thing to do, I really like you , and I don't want anything about us to change...but I came into to this far yo quickly and I regret not waiting...I should've waited and made a clear decision later, which is what I don't do, because I'm head-strong, and I don't think things through, I just go with the flow and push on forward knowing full well what might be at the end of the road for me.
I really hope we can be friends still , I wanted to wait 'til after Christmas to tell you...So it wouldn't ruin your holidays...I like you alot , but I should've waited longer to make such a rash decision, and I apologize for that.
See, me and Tia broke up, but I thought SHE was the one that didn't want to be with me, I was apparently wrong, I was very distraught because I still liked her...for some reason her constant bickering and telling me what to do is what keeps me with her, think of Scrubs, where Dr. Cox is married to that women, and yet they always fight and make fun of each other, but they both respect each other a great deal.
I guess what I'm saying is ...That I should've waited for Tia like I said I would, and I've always thought this would come back to bite me in the ass, I love your family, they make me so very happy...and so do you, I don't want to lose any respect from any of you...I just hope you can all realize that I didn't think this through before I started dating you, I'm going to miss coming over to your house at 12AM and just chilling, and I can only ask for your forgiveness...and that you don't resent me for my decision...
I'll miss you, I can only hope you still want to be friends with such a brash, hard-headed, dense person such as me...
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From:
Date: Dec 21, 2008 3:25 PM
I went to look at your MySpace profile and I saw that Tia had commented that she loves you recently.
I don't want to jump to conclusions or anything dumb like that and I'm not the kind of person to prevent you from talking to anyone for any reason, but I think that if there are still feelings going on there, that I'd want to know..
I feel badly for intruding and asking questions like this, but I'd feel worse if I let something like that go ignored and and up suspecting or hurting later on.
I can respect that you're busy lately and that you can't talk to me. Take your time. I just wanted to let you know that I'm concerned.
Take care.
I am so sorry for hurting you ...
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Dec 21, 2008 4:11 PM
[omit]; I sort of knew.
I like you but you've lost respect from me in that you weren't honest right away. I'm not one for "fluffing" things until it's comfortable to let go, if things are let go. We could have done a lot of things under the guise of being in a relationship just over the holidays, and it still would have ended up the same: I'd be at my mom's house, and you'd still have to dump me online on fucking MySpace. Then I'd be dumped and at my mom's. And then possibly with a lot more regrets than I have now.
I have to think about what I want to be to you. I think I still want to be friends but I'm not sure yet. I hope that in the future you're more open. I recognize you were trying to consider my feelings but I'm still a bit upset.
I'm sorry that things went as far as they did. I was trying to get closer to you because I felt that somewhere you weren't all with me.
And I was hoping that our relationship would warrant more than a MySpace breakup. I was hoping HOPING that I had earned enough respect to have it told to me either in your own voice over the phone, or face to face. Holy shit.
Umm.. I really can't think of anything else to say. I'm glad I figured it out myself, I guess you can stop avoiding me now.
closing comment "Well, THAT didn't last very long."
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From: Stick Shift
Date: Dec 21, 2008 3:41 PM
This is why I've been so "busy" lately...
, I jumped into this relationship to quickly...Tia hadn't even been gone a month before I started to be with you, and even at the time, I wondered if it was the right thing to do, I really like you , and I don't want anything about us to change...but I came into to this far yo quickly and I regret not waiting...I should've waited and made a clear decision later, which is what I don't do, because I'm head-strong, and I don't think things through, I just go with the flow and push on forward knowing full well what might be at the end of the road for me.
I really hope we can be friends still , I wanted to wait 'til after Christmas to tell you...So it wouldn't ruin your holidays...I like you alot , but I should've waited longer to make such a rash decision, and I apologize for that.
See, me and Tia broke up, but I thought SHE was the one that didn't want to be with me, I was apparently wrong, I was very distraught because I still liked her...for some reason her constant bickering and telling me what to do is what keeps me with her, think of Scrubs, where Dr. Cox is married to that women, and yet they always fight and make fun of each other, but they both respect each other a great deal.
I guess what I'm saying is ...That I should've waited for Tia like I said I would, and I've always thought this would come back to bite me in the ass, I love your family, they make me so very happy...and so do you, I don't want to lose any respect from any of you...I just hope you can all realize that I didn't think this through before I started dating you, I'm going to miss coming over to your house at 12AM and just chilling, and I can only ask for your forgiveness...and that you don't resent me for my decision...
I'll miss you, I can only hope you still want to be friends with such a brash, hard-headed, dense person such as me...
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Dec 21, 2008 3:25 PM
I went to look at your MySpace profile and I saw that Tia had commented that she loves you recently.
I don't want to jump to conclusions or anything dumb like that and I'm not the kind of person to prevent you from talking to anyone for any reason, but I think that if there are still feelings going on there, that I'd want to know..
I feel badly for intruding and asking questions like this, but I'd feel worse if I let something like that go ignored and and up suspecting or hurting later on.
I can respect that you're busy lately and that you can't talk to me. Take your time. I just wanted to let you know that I'm concerned.
Take care.
